Inside story of my life.

Final examination week
and yeah
this is the time where I feel
emotionally unstable
F me.

My love life
am now 21 years old
young, am I not?
I have only been in a proper relationship once
it was short though
even the starting
started in somewhat
confusing manner, if I were to say.

With men,
relationship I mean
well, none.

Maybe I was too scared
or maybe I was in a state of confusion
nevertheless, I, myself, have no idea.

Well the feeling for men
it's always here inside of me
for women however
it sometimes trigger
so sudden that I would never have the chance
to prepare myself.

Melancholic as it is
I am never truly in love
I wonder, even it is my own life
who will I choose
between these two homosapiens
for to live my life with.

Janji dicapati, eh?

Morning peeps.

If you have been reading my old post
I had mentioned that I've been
quite active in a PLU social sites.

Oh yes,
the temptation is irresistible
you'll find muscular build men
gorgeous looking studs
all showing off their assets
competing each other
wow, I said.

I am not that kind of person
I am just a passer by
or a spectator
looking here and there
saying hi sometimes
but that was just it
you cannot just see handsome men
at least say something to them, LOL.

Anyway,
when sending messages
it's up to your luck
or that person's preferences most of the time
if they like you
they'll reply your message.

Each of us has our own agenda
for me, sometimes when I feel lonely
*if you know what I mean*
I go there looking for people to talk with
there are people who'll respond your message
sometimes people with the same level of lust as me
*wink*

Nevertheless
I never met them outside or
revealed to them my phone no
it never felt right.

I have encountered people
who were just wanting for sex
I don't feel disgusted
I just felt it was wrong
to do it randomly.

You see
my life was not that clean and pure anyway
but it is just about principles
I don't go finding mates online
and asking for a one night stand
a relationship for me
should involve feeling
not just lust.

Besides
my fun days was over long time ago
high school was the place I turned to this
and it stopped there too
well just the activity
the feeling just won't go away
oh wait, I did met someone online once
during my asasi@foundation time
but that was the only time
and I swear i would never do it again with a stranger
disgusting.

Anyhow
yeah I am not innocent
but not a total slut too
I am just curious and lustful *LOL*
and so I channeled it online
but with limits.

Sampai di sini sahaja.
Adios amigos
ma'assalamah
voila!

reminder to myself. noted.

i write it here
so i remember
what is my next all about.

i got the idea now
but i am just too damn sleepy
my head, my eyes can't take it anymore.

next post is going to be
about people i met online
people like me
people like us.

remember this myself,
write about this later
when you are all wide and awake.

can't keep my eyes open
arghh, good bye, people.

Always been, forever.

Dear readers,
by now you should know
that I have trouble sleeping at night.

When night reaches
people start to become inactive
I act the opposite.

When sun starts to show itself
people start to arise
I start to yawn.

Often, this semester
I missed several classes
all because of sleep.

Never in my life I did so
only this time
this semester.

There was one time
where I refused to sleep
traumatized or scared
of skipping another class.

Always,
the less sleep I get
my face becomes soggy
eye bags are clearer,
and my skin, urgh,
pimples emerge, pores larger.

I am writing this
while refraining myself
from falling asleep
because my class is at 8am
and it is 6.09am now.

*yawn*yawn*yawn*yawn*

Some other time maybe.

The results were out
BN had made its way again
becoming the ruling party
for another term of five years
kudos to you BN.

PR, don't give up hope yet
though Tok Guru has let go of his CM position
and rumors on Anwar's last time running for election
just stay where you are
and continue to be a good opposition
as you always be, will ya?

It is time for me to voice out
my political thoughts
since next time around
I'll be the new voter
so, PR, just hold on till that time arrive, alright.

It's #lainkalilah for now
and that lain kali, insyaAllah
will be most remembered.

May 5, 2013.

It is now or never

time for Malaysians to choose

our next government party.

I had just reached 21 few weeks ago

even if I registered myself

with the processing of the form

I will still miss my chance to vote.

Nevertheless, this time around

polling day has never been this thrill

for which I give much attention.

The day is going to end within few hours

decision will be made

*heart thumping*

whoever win, I hope only for the best!

Still, #ini kalilah.