The woman who strived for progress

She worked really hard to make sure her children get the best education, extra classes and necessary reading materials. One she told me, if it was about education, she does not mind spending on it. She knows we were not well of, we barely had enough food served on the table. Spending some extra cash was rare, it was luxury. But she would not mind too, working hard earning the extra bucks for her children. She knows opportunities one can miss without education, at all time she preached for her children to strive in their studies. I think they did good. Because of this too, I believe education changes one's perspective and opens door to many many more favourable circumstances.

She was an excellent daughter, wife and mother. She is my mom, Allahyarhamah Zaharah Mansoor. This is her 3rd year of passing. May she rest well. Love is forever, and always. I love you, Emak.

Happy international women's day!

31!

Today I woke up from my sleep drenched in sweat. I know I perspire a lot, but I can’t seem to remember the last time I sweat during my sleep.

Back then, Emak woke me up for Subuh every single day. And every day too, she will see me soaked in sweat. My room was small. Air circulation was almost none existence (I just don’t like to open the window). So it can get a bit warm after a while.

I think she always feel bad for me. We could not afford an aircond then. Instead, she got me an air cooler as an alternative. It was basically a fan where you can put water and ice cubes in it. It was supposed to help bringing down the temperature by a few degree celcius, but it did not. It was a few hundreds ringgit still. Ayah got a small bonus from his workplace, that was the money she used.

Despite it being almost useless ( I was also lazy to prepare ice cubes and change the water every now and then), I appreciate her kindness. We were not well off, only the basics, nothing fancy, but Emak & Ayah worked hard to make sure all of us got our needs.

My parents were not well educated, not from rich families. Knowing this, they know my sister and I should not go through the same. And they also a firm believer education is the way to success. I too have the same opinion.

My parents never cease to amaze me. They are the reason who I am today! May Allah will grant them happiness. Happy 31st anniversary! 

So I decided

The other day, somebody asked me my new year resolution. I came to a silence. Never before have I had a resolution. All the while, whatever comes, I will go with it.
This year, no more riding my fate. I will create one.

I thought hard. I realized I was not really contented with my life. I was not very happy. Often I linger on the past, and sure enough regretting on many things.

So I answered him, "This year is a year where I am going to be happy. I am going to work for my happiness. I am going to love who I am the way I am. No more somber solemn days ahead. I need to be happy. I am the definition of happiness!". 

For the first time ever, I have a new year resolution, to appreciate my own self and enjoy the moments.

Happiness, here we go! 😎

I hope it's not too late, but Happy New Year 2018, friends!

Short Weekend Gateway

Setelah kurang dari 2 minggu perancangan, aku bertolak ke Sungai Lembing untuk lari sebentar dari hiruk pikuk kotaraya Kuala Lumpur. Ini bukanlah percutian, tapi sekadar pintu keluar dari modenisasi bandar. Masa yang dihabiskan disana kebanyakan digunakan untuk tidur dan makan sahaja. Cukuplah 2 hari di ceruk pelosok Kuantan bermalas-malasan, untuk recharge semula tenaga kehidupan.

Menginap di Time Capsule Retreat, Sungai Lembing, Pahang.

Bergambar di pohon tua.

Antara penduduk local yang ramah.

Aku captionkan gambar ini di Instagram sebagai I don't give a fuck weekend gateway.

BBQ hasil air tangan sendiri 😁